Actress Angelina Jolie, has repressed her dark side, but never really escaped it. From drug addiction to an obsession with the macabre, it still lurks within she tells CBS’s “60 Minutes.”
“I went through heavy, darker times and I survived them,” Jolie tells the show’s Bob Simon in a segment set to air Nov. 27.
“I didn’t die young, so I’m very lucky. There are other artists and people who didn’t survive certain things.”
Jolie recently traveled to Vietnam to take one of her children, Pax, to visit with his grandmother. She shocked onlookers with her too-skinny frame.
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Some estimate that the 5’8″ Jolie weighs less than 100 pounds when her normal weight should be around 125 to 135 pounds.
When asked to elaborate, Angelina, 36, is reticent.
“Nothing I want to go into a lot of detail about, but I think people can imagine that I did the most dangerous and I did the worst,” says Jolie, who’s raising six children with partner Brad Pitt, 47.
“For many reasons I shouldn’t be here. You think of those too many times where you came close to too many dangerous things, too many chances taken too far.”
Angelina has previously admitted she experimented with drugs, alcohol and self-mutiliation as a way to numb her existential emptiness.
“I used to cut myself or jump out of airplanes, trying to find something new to push up against because sometimes everything else felt too easy,” Jolie revealed in 2010.
“I was searching for something deeper, something more. I tried everything. I always felt caged, closed in, like I was punching at things that weren’t there. I always had too much energy for the room I was in.”
In her teens and early twenties, Angelina admits she was self-destructive, experimenting with drugs and going through bouts of severe depression.
“I knew little about the world and I was completely self-absorbed,” says Jolie.
Angelina has openly spoken of her teenage self-loathing, which led to cutting herself with knives, her fascination with death (and even considered a career as a funeral director), thoughts of suicide, and undefined feelings of frustration.
Looking back on this period in 2003, “I used to think I was unstable, because I had this thirst for something. I could never figure out what it was.
I couldn’t sleep at night, and I always wanted to be somewhere else, and I have a window tattooed, this little box, and it’s because wherever I was, I wanted to be somewhere else. And I always saw myself — wherever I was in life — staring out the window.”
A former employee recently alleged her morbid fascinations continue.
“When Angelina’s kids get cuts and scrapes, she saves their discarded bandages in a jar. She thinks she’s being edgy and artistic, but to others, she just seems weird,” the ex-employee told InTouch magazine.
In 2001, Jolie was named the Goodwill Ambassador for the United Nations High Commission for Refugees (UNHCR), which added a layer of meaning to her vacuous life.
Since then, she has visited UNHCR refugee operations in the Balkans, Sierra Leone, Namibia, Tanzania, Kenya, Cambodia, Thailand, Pakistan and Ecuador. The experience completely changed her outlook.
“I’ve become a better human being,” Jolie has said. “I’ve learned the strength of the human spirit.
Angelina, who’s set to make her directorial debut in the drama “In the Land of Blood and Honey,” still has an edgy side, but having a happy home life has curbed it.
“I’m still a bad girl,” she says. “I still have that side of me. It’s just in its place now. It belongs to Brad…or our adventures.”
“In the Land of Blood and Honey” hits theaters Dec. 23. Check out a preview of her interview below: