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Kristen Stewart Reveals How She Struggles With Fame (photos)

Kristen Stewart explains in a new interview how she struggles with fame and reveals her feelings of awkwardness in public, which may help shed light on criticism that she is aloof and detached… among other things.

The interview, with the UK edition of Vogue magazine, took place before her cheating scandal with “Snow White and the Huntsman” Director Rupert Sanders exploded in the tabloid press.

So, it sheds no light on the incident or how she feels now that their affair has been exposed. But the interview is revealing nonetheless, because of Kristen’s candid remarks about the effects of fame on her.

Kristen Stewart Goes Glam in Vogue

She notes, for example, that living a public life is much harder than it seems and that she’s not a natural at it. “I know if you haven’t thought about how you want to present a very packaged idea of yourself then it can seem like you lack ambition,” she said. “But, dude, honestly? I can’t.” Dude?

“People expect it to be easy because there you are, out there, doing the thing that you want and making lots of money out of it. But, you know, I’m not that smooth. I can get clumsy around certain people.

“Like, if I were to sit down and think, ‘OK, I’m really famous, how am I going to conduct myself in public?’ I wouldn’t know who that person would be! It would be a lot easier if I could, but I can’t,” she said.

And, she pays a price for that because of the way many perceive her.

Kristen also talked about how she identified with the characters in her new movie “On the Road,” based the ’50s-era novel that helped define the “Beat Generation.” Stewart plays Marylou, a free-thinking, sexually liberated teenager.

“There is always going to be that seam of people who want things differently to the standardized version. It’s not necessarily a rebellious thing, it’s just who they are,” she said. “That world back then, it just seems freer to me than anything I could ever touch and I’m fully nostalgic for it, even though I wasn’t even alive then.”

‘It’s the loyalty aspect of it all. I love being on the periphery with a group of people who have the same values that I do. People who don’t get off on fame, who just like the process of making movies and thrive.”

If only it were so simple. Obviously, as Kristen knows now, making movies brings with it lots of public attention.

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